Head Up! Wings Out!

Every tear I cry is water for the garden of my VICTORY!!

I feel like I’ve always been made for psychology; it truly is a passion of mine. To help others unlock their baggage and their way of thinking; to open their mind to new possibilities and learn how their “stinking thinking” is what traps them in their situations/circumstances. Which is what made it difficult for me to walk through depression, PTSD symptoms, loneliness and the deepest sadness of my life. I felt trapped in my own mind and couldn’t get out of it. My very gift was being used against me to keep me from my purpose and calling, I know that now.

I’ve learned things I wouldn’t have learned otherwise. I can now help people on a deeper level, on a personal level, things I’ve walked through myself. God will use what the enemy means for harm, for our good.

“As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” Genesis 50:20

I’ve learned that we only trust those that have walked through the same fire and can show us their burn scars and what helped them heal. Without battle scars, how do you know what I’m feeling or going through? We need/want real personal faith shared to help us unlock our own.

Experience will always trump education because of the wisdom one gets from experience. We can study for a test 10,000 times and still fail it. We can study the actual test with the answers 10,000 times and will pass it every time. The imprint left from experience sticks around longer than learned knowledge. I’ve been out of school now for 28 years and I have no knowledge left of anything I learned in those 12 years, except that which I have experienced in my life. If I had to desire for more education and the money to go to college, I would have continued my pursuit in psychology. Now I think God is providing the education I need to be His psychologist. (Whoa!)

Thomas Edison once said “I have not failed 10,000 times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those 10,000 ways will not work. When I have eliminated the ways that will not work, I will find the way that will work.”

Proving that experience is what caused him to try 10,000 times before he got the light bulb right. Ironically, that is what I used to call epiphanies I would have while I was on my healing journey, “light bulb moments”.

Hindsight is always 20/20! Everything I’ve ever felt, thought, went through has led me to this point. Where I once saw failures, I now see experiences that offered opportunities for personal growth.

I’ve always been told I make people feel better, I’m a born leader and I have the gift of influence. I feel like I’m an empath, I can read people’s body language and what they aren’t saying. I can often walk in a room and feel the atmosphere and tell you about the emotions within. Those close to me have always claimed I can read their minds because I call or think of them at just the right time.

The prompting of the Holy Spirit is strong with this one. 🙂

I want to be a therapist for the Lord, full time. “Soul therapist” comes to mind.